“The Gift of Joy” by Nicole Bell
A story of survival, surrender, and supernatural restoration.
What do you do when life breaks you?
When betrayal, heartbreak, abuse, and loss threaten to silence your voice? Birth Out of Pain is the gripping, true story of Nicole Bell—a woman who walked through fire and found faith, purpose, and joy on the other side.
From the streets of Spanish Town, Jamaica to the stormy seasons of life in the UK, Nicole's journey takes readers through unimaginable trials: teen pregnancy, domestic violence, abandonment, and near-death moments—yet every chapter echoes one truth:
But God had a plan.
Experience
Nicole's journey through pain and triumph offers readers a powerful testimony of resilience. Her experiences with domestic violence, single motherhood, and spiritual transformation provide real-world wisdom and hope.
Motivation
Through her story, Nicole inspires others to find strength in their struggles. Her message of hope and faith encourages readers to see their challenges as opportunities for growth and transformation.
Goals
Nicole's mission is to help others find healing and purpose through their pain. She aims to empower women to break free from cycles of abuse and discover their God-given potential.
Vision
Nicole envisions a world where women embrace their worth and walk in freedom. Through her ministry and writing, she seeks to create a community of empowered women who support and uplift each other.
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Nicole recalls her childhood in Spanish Town, Jamaica, where she was raised by a hardworking single mother. The absence of her father and the daily struggles of poverty shaped her early identity. Her life takes a major turn when, at 17, she becomes pregnant—leading to rejection, heartbreak, and the tragic murder of her baby's father. This chapter captures the beginning of her pain—but also the resilience that begins to rise.
Now in the UK, Nicole tries to rebuild her life. She meets a man and moves in with him, unaware of his criminal background. Over time, she's drawn into a dangerous world. When he placed something in her lap while police were following them, she realizes how deeply trapped she's become. His manipulation and emotional abuse escalate, leaving Nicole fearful for her life—and unsure how to escape.
In an act of survival, Nicole flees back to Jamaica. Emotionally and spiritually drained, she finds herself weeping uncontrollably—until she finally surrenders to God at a church altar. It's a turning point: the start of a spiritual awakening. A literal and symbolic return to mandate, this chapter shows the first steps toward deliverance and identity in Christ.
Nicole is baptized and begins her journey with Christ in earnest. She finds community, purpose, and joy in serving at church. Her hunger for God is real and transforming. But even as she returns to England and settles into a new church family, the enemy isn't done—she soon enters a marriage that brings new tests of faith.
Post-divorce, Nicole throws herself into church, parenting, and purpose. She becomes an usher and hairdresser, impacting others with her testimony. But God begins working deeper within her—refining her vision of what love and a godly relationship should look like. A new man enters her life, and while she's skeptical at first, God is orchestrating something greater.
Her new relationship is challenged by gossip, judgment, and false accusations. Even the church becomes a battleground. Despite the pain, Nicole chooses forgiveness and presses on. The couple gets married, but their early years are far from easy. Nicole finds herself in a marriage that feels more like a business contract than a loving partnership.
Nicole becomes overwhelmed by motherhood, business responsibilities, and emotional neglect. Her husband is driven by success, but the family suffers. Their daughter's health scares, financial burdens, and spiritual dryness leave Nicole tangled—stretched too thin, lost in survival mode. Yet, even in that mess, God is whispering: You are not forgotten. I am still working.